Well, I have come to realize that I will never have 'normal' sleep, and its somewhat best to stay awake until I am REALLY tired, otherwise I'll just wake up a zillion times. Now that I've been up every night until 3 ish I've woken up about 5 times. It's better than the 10-20 I was having before. I should really count them... maybe that'll be a fun project...?

Anyway - I'm bored and waiting for time to pass me by. I don't feel like reading, and know that if I start to draw I cant finish cause I'll get too tired XD hmmmm... so I came here and thought I'd ramble.

I had an internship at Pylon Design Inc a few weeks ago. It went pretty well, I really liked the 9-5 downtown job-like routine. I have another 3 week internship starting on the 17th at Underline Studios. Should be fun.

hmm, I'm quitting Starbucks! crazy thought! I've been there for 3 and a half years now... its as if I'm ancient in that store... >.<;; but yeah, it'll be a good thing to focus only on school for my last year.

Lately it seems I've been thinking about the past and such. Normally I try not to think to deeply into it, but something kinda broke it all open, only a bit though. I'm finding it hard to focus on the obvious good things in front of me when my mind keeps pondering things that happened and all the 'what-if's'. Seems strange that I'm either wanting the future too much or I'm looking back to the past too fondly - the present is never satisfying. I don't quite know what to do about it all. I've become quite lost among my emotions that I don't understand much of anything anymore.

Eh. It's not all that important I suppose. I've always had a tug between my ambition and my absurd amount of laziness.

Humm. I'm going to give into sleep. but before I do I'm grabbing a paper and pen and for every time I wake up from sleep I'll jot it down. Tomorrow I will post it here.

RAWR. ok, and I've been doodling Artemis and Jarlaxle so once I get a few I'll stick them together and post them I hope to make a good pick of Artemis brooding and Jarlaxle dancing/prancing about. haha, I love those two!

ps. I just finished Road to the Patriarch and .... BAD ENDING! I tossed the book across my room I was so unsatisfied with it! Ugh such a crushing blow, I cried! I really hope Salvatore writes more of them.

ok, night~